To: Lloyd

I was on interferon 3 times.

The first time only minor reactions because I was only on it for a few months when it first came out. The second time I had what they called an unexplanable nervous breakdown and suffered thyroid damage. The third time it destroyed me totally. They've hushed it up and got rid of me before I could figure out what was going on.

I can't think, talk or function right. Writting this note feels very hard to concentrate, to hit the right keys, to spell right, to explain without making a fool of myself. I feel hopeless. I know in my heart there is no answer because I'm way too far gone. If only you could see in my head, you'ld run. I'ld run! It's been over a year and some days things feel worse. There's no escape. No way out.Ouch! I can't hold on much longer.I used to have incredible self control. Now I can't concentrate for a second. Any way a Canadian can give it to these butchers or is it a border thing yet?

J S . from Ontatio

I don't even know if I made sense.